It's a miracle im still alive. I really have no DRIVE at all. I try to push out an ounce of determination but always give up (it's sort of like trying to quit smoking but how you always go back). I have an online job that was making me a pretty good deal of money until recently and business has been very slow and I have rent coming up. I even got to go to Hawaii for a vacation.. which was pretty stupid because I needed a car but I wanted to experiences something magnificent and I did.

Now the really BIG thing that holds me back is I have a felony. When I was 18 I made the mistake of taking money from my moms fiance to give to her because he was kicking us all out on the street for no reason at all.. and I did and was convicted. It's the only time I had ever been in trouble and the only time I ever plan on getting in trouble. Suspended sentence and 5 years probation (due to get off in July but I won't have court fee's paid off so it will be extended.

I'm a fairly intelligent guy. My only real skill is in computers. College is out of the option. I can't just live off the Pell Grant as I would need a ***** of alot more money and no one would hire me anyways since I have a felony. At least not here. TRUST me. I've tried. I ace every interview until they ask about the felony and then BAM I'm rejected. When I was 16 I attempted suicide and I guess you could say I felt like I died then..

I've tried anti-depressants, counseling, etc. Is there anything I can do?

Let's say I have

No self-determination
Rarely ever happy (severe depression)
Some medical problems (severe back pain and is very debilitating)
Felony- Theft
Probation

I'm not looking for self-pity or anything but just asking for some help if you've ever been in a similar situation. Sorry it's so long.

I'll give you a lookie-loo of my DOC page.

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P.S. Please do not say anything about religion. I am already religious (not to sound petty)

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This book constitutes the thoroughly refereed post-conference proceedings of the 9th International Workshop on Agent-Mediated Electronic Commerce, AMEC IX, co-located with the Sixth International Joint Conference on Autonomous Agents and Multiagent Systems, AAMAS 2007, held in Honolulu, Hawaii, in May 2007, and the 5th Workshop on Trading Agent Design and Analysis, TADA 2007, co-located with the Twenty-Second AAAI Conference on Artificial Intelligence, AAAI 2007, held in Vancouver, Canada, in July 2007.

This volume presents 15 revised and selected papers from these workshops. The primary and complementary goal of both workshops was to continue to bring together novel work from diverse fields on modeling, implementation and evaluation of computational trading institutions and/or agent strategies. The papers originating from AMEC focus on a large variety of issues on auctions, negotiation, and strategic behavior in electronic marketplaces. The papers originating from TADA stem from the effort of the community to design scenarios where trading agent designers and market designers can be pitched against one another.